HUMANS AT SEA

The man I am today, no ordinary man shall be!

This is the man I am. My life moves in a circular direction. I come back home to go back to sea and go to sea to come back home. I have no address except for the name of the vessel, my passport shows one, my home is elsewhere, where my heart belongs.

I am not like any other man, but yet I am the most ordinary person at heart. I cannot go through the daily things ordinary man goes through and yet the ordinary man cannot take the pain I go through. He cannot live away from his home, love and life for months on end. He cannot be the helpless son, the lonely husband or the yearning father. He will not know the frustrations of staying awake for days and not getting rest at all. There are no constant time zones we stick to. The ordinary man will not know the lonely cabins I come back to after work, whereas he comes back to a home full of his loved ones. He gets to eat what his mother cooks and get to see his loved ones everyday. I only get to see them on pictures. The biggest fear that grips my heart is when my family needs me desperately and I may not be around them. I fight myself daily, I fight these surging thoughts. I always look forward to the day I meet my family at home, I pray for their safety and well being here and hope they are happy. I only want them to know that while I stand tall on the bridge or working hard at the engine, I love my family and I am proud of who I am and what I do. The ordinary man I am inside, I shall always be. But, the man I am today, no ordinary man shall be.